That is really the end

There is no point i cry, there is no more hoping. You are selfish. You know the impossibility but you asked me to wait till i am back to Malaysia. Why you like to keep the 'gold' in your mouth? Is there hard to tell your feeling. Tell early, settle early. If you were not telling me, i will be the stupid one waiting until that time i get nothing but hurt. Thank you for saying out at last. Know it now better than later even though it is still hurt.

SHARON TAN KAH YEAN, DON'T CRY ANYMORE. NO TEARS DROPPING AGAIN.

STAY STRONG. NOTHING WORTH FOR YOU TO CRY AGAIN AND AGAIN. DON'T

CARE SOMEONE CANNOT TAKE UP THE CHALLENGES YOU GIVEN. CARE

ONLY FOR THOSE RESPONSIBLE.

END MEANS END. DON'T PATCH BACK (as Lai said)

REMEMBER, YOU GUYS ARE FROM DIFFERENCE WORLD. BOTH OF YOU WILL

NOT HAVE HAPPINESS EVEN TOGETHER BACK!

All the time

I AM THINKING OF YOU ALL THE TIME.

MIS XIU MIS XIU!

YOU REALLY WILL SPEND YOUR TIME TALKING TO ME ON TOMORROW?

I HOPE YOU HOLD YOUR PROMISE!

HOPE CAN SETTLE WITH A GOOD WAY!

I AM WAITING YOU!

MAY GOD GUIDE US AND BE WITH US!

Results

My last semester exam results were out. My result is average. I got second lower. I should put more effort in this semester so may be can get better but not worst result. GOD BLESS ME!
I have to go back Malaysia with good result!!! hehe.

My Evidence and Criminal Law is better than Admiralty Law. Evidence is exam based module and Admiralty is 50% assignment and 50% exam. I am not doing well either in Admiralty assignment, exam or maybe both. =(

Anyway, still thank lots to Lord who giving me such results. The effort i put and the result i get is out of my expectation. I am last minutes student. hehe. I believe if i put more effort then i can get better. Right? ^^

I have told him

I have decided the decision i want. I have told him as well. However, the result is as usual. My decision has no effect. Because, he don't want to end.

Therefore, i give him a chance again. If he still having the same way, then i will consider again what to do. hehe. Hope everything will be smooth. Don't give me stress in that again. It is worst than i am having stress in studies.

Cannot reach to DREAMLAND!!!

Lol, over full, over chinese tea, over laugh, over stress about exams result= cannot fall in dreamland. =p Going to 4am but i am still awake and blogging now.

Was with friends having dinner at Yin Ji Bar and our bill is 15 pound each person. Not cheap right?
Anyway, is Chinese New Year so should be fine. Once a while, not everyday. hehe.
The house was full with our noise and laughter. The most funny which make me short of breath was that my friend Vivienne Lua telling others of the story of me saying "bu" of the poker card. What you call 'Q' in poker card? "Queen", normal pronounceane as 'Q' or what? I used to call it "ah bu"...lol... My friends all laugh at me when i said ''bu''...hahahaha...They never heard of this therefore is funny for them.

My exam results will out on tomorrow. Checked portal but not showing yet. Should be able to know by tomorrow morning, i think. Feel so scary. Everytime i close my eye when i try to connect to the web page. lol. Don't dare to see. hehehe

Another dinner with other Malaysian friends on Wednesday. Should have fun!!! =D yeah!!!

what a CNY?

Damn boring!!!!! No Chinese new year celebration at all. I guess people at Malaysia having the same feeling. ^.^

Siennnn ar. What to do?

Went to Newcastle but not so fun actually. The Chinatown okok only. Was so crowded when we reached there. Couldn't see anything. Hence we gone to have buffet. Anyway, after eating we turn to chinatown again and saw 'qi2 ling1' dance, not lion dance. hahaha....

I have not traveling around other than shopping. sien lo. When u have nothing to buy, i feel shopping is some kind of boring. I have bought a pair of boots from Dorothy Perkins, Nike t-shirt (couple shirt) from Sport Direct and helping friend get Newcastle jersey from Newcastle football store.

Chinese New Year

I will off to Newcastle on Thursday night till Sunday night. Newcastle there got china town and so will be more fun than at Hull..hehe..

I heard will have lion dance on the 1st day of CNY. Hope i will have fun at there.

I miss home so much. 1st time in my life celebrate CNY without family. No ang pao in this year as well...=( sad-nya..hehehe..
My parents, auntie and uncle, and also my brother and his wife will going to Sri Lanka for holidays during CNY. So nice if i am there. Maybe can follow them.lol....=)

n s!!w ! TBR !!! (if u understand =p)

BRB

missing missing you

Best friend forever!!!

Li Jie

Gan Li Jie is my friend. I am now missing her so much. She is always the one advice me and encouraged me.

I am missing our old school days in SMK(P) Raja Zarina. We have lots of memories. I was difference class with her. But everytime i will go to her class find her and chat withe her..hehe..
Every break time i will having food together with her. We have attended same tuition class as well.

After graduated from secondary school, we still have contact until now. Every semester break we will find each other out to meet and chit chat. LJ i miss you so much!!! Love you!!!

Eventually she has talked to me about my relationship problem. What she said had enlightened me alot. What she said are true and logical. Her message even make me cried out loud. After having problem and quarrel with BR, i never never drop a tear. But LJ has cry me out.=) Thank lots to her for her support and advice. She is always the angel to me.hehe.

Thank Lord i have such a best friend. My dear friend, don't worry, very soon i will smile back and having fun in life.

LOVE YOU!!!

Damn

is so damn hatefullllllll...................................to talk to him..........
I will die heart attack..lol.....*touch wood*

I can't wait till after one month. I wan settle now. But he don't want. Arggggg.......

He knew what i will decide and so he don't want to settle now? Or other way round? Good or bad i don't know i don't know. Why love is so complicated than my studies- LAW. @.@ ishhhhh.....

God bless me without confusion..hehe..

We speak out

I have 1 month break. University holidays break? Work break? lol.... I have decided to have 1 month cold down period with BoonRoy and he agree too. We are too tired in the relationship? Maybe.

I need time to think of the decision I have to take. Which way I need to go? Turn left, turn right, or go straight? What considerations i am taking into account. Everything I have to considers carefully. What will give me the happiness?

I am temporary free from the lock of confusing and on the other hand he free from my quarreling with him. I like to complain about him and give him pressure. He, however, don't like me quarreling with him. Quarreling makes our relationship broke. He is not feeling happy with me when i am the one start the quarrel. Should I keep quiet when everytime he make me not satisfy with him? What can i do? I am clueless.

He always think of money money money. Money ar, money, I am commanding you now to go find Mr. Tan Boon Roy. He is finding you very very badly.
For me? Who should i command? I think i need to command TBR take the relationship seriously.

He never concern of anything i demand from him. He just concern of 1 thing i request from him. I did told him about standard i want, financially able to support me, the loves and cares. BUT he just think i am materialistic. Keep saying me think that money is everything for me. In fact he is the one take money very seriously. Money is too importance to him now. Without money he can't do anything. Can't even care of the gf. :p

Everything has changed. To good or to bad we don't know. I just know my requirements has changed. No longer the same as last 5 years.

I believe i can stand during this 1 month break without contact with each other and he can do it too. Since i am too far away from his house now and thus i can do it. Last time his house is too near to my house. Walk to his house need less than 5 minutes. I always can go to his house even we have break out. His house gate always open up for me because i am too close to his mum and his family. Nonetheless, i can always get his room's key easily and open up the door and quarrel with him again.hahaha. Think back of these situation, i feel funny and interesting. Sometime feel myself very scary also.lol.. That's why i ask you guys don't mess up with me. hahahaha....

After all the conversations with him, the conclusion are that he more worry of money than everything. He takes himself more importance than everyone and everything. He rather choose to go limteh with friends also don't want chat with me. The reason being is that i always talk abit then wan quarrel with him.lol..haha..i should participate in debate. Don't I? lol...
These are the conclusions i can draw.

Past 5 years

Last Year

Can you see physically has changed, why not thinking also change, right?
It's not the time to blame each other. Not you are wrong or i am wrong. Is time to change what people don't like. Is time of REVOLUTION!!!